Monday, September 28, 2009


Something about the sunshine completely changes me. It encourages me so much.

Today is monday and usually I would be whining about how much Monday blows. But not this monday. It was a great start. Rode to work in my precious VW Punkin. Loafed around for some of the morning. Justified that because of my incredible work day saturday. And this afternoon, I have focused on projects that are all my own. I don't get to do that often but I did it today. Tomorrow, I will work harder. Today, I breezed through.

Fall is my absolute favorite time of the year. There is something about crisp cool air and changing tree leaves that just absolutely warms my heart. This time of year makes me love more. People. My dogs. My town. Good Music. I love all of those things more I think during the fall of the year. Am I being seasonally discriminatory? Perhaps. But I can do that. :) On the same note though, I often wish that I was IN love during the fall. Is that weird or what? Not like "I wish I had a bf because I don't wanna be alone" kinda thing...nah...that's not what I'm talking about. I'm not, nor will I ever be that person. I just think that this is a great time of year to share with someone special. I can't think of anything more romantic than grabbing a pumpkin spice latte and walking in a park with pretty trees. lovely. One fall, that will happen. Just maybe not this fall. Or maybe...

Today's Pearl of Wisdom:
Sometimes, imperfection is so perfect.

*I know today's pearl is a bit of a contradiction but think about it....

Wednesday, September 23, 2009


Had a moment of self-doubt in last a little emo...please disregard if i sounded a little crazy.

I'm gonna blame this one on horomones...haha!


A reminder that i have no clue what I'm doing here...

Where is this pretty place? I want to go there. I need to go there. You know, that place where you don't know anyone but when you go into the pastry shop for a cup of warm coffee and a brioche on a cool fall night, the barista listens when you talk and then leaves you perfectly alone when you don't.

I'm really scared of this whole business thing that I do.

Scared to death.

Not because I am incapable. But because I am afraid that it will turn me into a monster that works all the time and never gets to enjoy life. A monster that doesn't have time for family or church..and never is relieved from stress...

I don't want to take this pressure I constantly feel out on my family. Nor do I want to miss out on family and friends because I don't feel like talking after work. I also don't want to be lonely for the rest of my life.

Did i make the wrong choice in staying around here? I just don't know anymore. I second guess myself and what I do every single day. For some reason, I just didn't think it would ever be this hard to know what was best for me. I'm a blessed little girl but I'm lost.

I'm scared and I want to run away to a place where everything will be okay.
...But I don't know where that is.

Today's Pearl of Widsom:
Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Lessons I am learning...

You always wanted a post. This one is just especially for you. Beyonce says it best. Add this song to that Rhianna one that you are so fond of. :)

Things I have come to realize lately:
1. People don't change in 99 out of 100 cases. Genuine change is a special and rare event.
2. People who settle are weak. I've always been a pretty tough girl. Not giving in now. I'm starting to figure out that I deserve better than what I often give myself credit lots of ways. My heart...I think they are all worth a little something. The people who realize that value are the ones I keep close to me. Love Ya'll.
3. My wedding will be intimate and small. Lindy's was perfect. But I realized that all my life, I have been dreaming of something that was totally wrong for me.
4.Even though fresh flowers die, there is simply no replacement for their temporary beauty.
5. My life is good. I am gonna be okay. I'm gonna make it. I. am. going. to. make. it.
6. Ingrid Michaelson sings music that is absolutely delicious. Listen to her and love her. Piano and all.

Today's Pearl of Wisdom:
If there is a dance floor available, take advantage of it. Don't let anyone hold you back.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Alas, Wedding time is upon us! My big sis and her boyfriend of almost 4 years are finally getting married in 3 days and I must say I couldn't be happier.

For a few reasons...
1. I'm happy for the two of them...
2. I'm exhausted with the wedding preparation
3. I get to wear a pretty dress.

So if you will, please be in prayer for the Gray family as we prepare for this most special occasion. We will try not to kill each other.

Today's Pearl of Wisdom:
Take the money and run.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

The next two weeks...

In the next two weeks, I am positive that there will be what some might think is the beginning of world war 3...around my house. Why? The Wedding. Its here. Sigh. It is upon us. And we...are...stressed.

However, after this wedding, I think I will do something positive to counteract the negative energy stemming from the "I Do Blues". I think that I will spread some cheer. You stick random pieces of paper up around town that say "You are beautiful" on them or "Never give up." or even something like in the picture above. I might even buy some spray paint and deface some public property with happiness....probably not...but ya never know. I just feel the need to be an encourager right now. And not necessarily to people I know...i try to encourage them all the time. But instead to people who's lives I may never know anything of. For people who I will never be useful to ...people who will never call me and want things from me. Just people. Because I love people. I think I love people because Jesus loves people. And since we are made in His image, it would only make since, right? Sitting in my studio limits the amount of people time that I get though, so I think God is providing me with a creative challenge on how to love people and reach people without actually working with them every single day. What a great challenge. Guess the brainstorming sessions have begun!

Have a great weekend, ya'll!

Today's Pearl of Wisdom:
When you ask someone to move mountains, make yourself available to assist in the process.